Knew Year's Resolutions
It occurs to me that as we approach the end of another year, news “features” will talk about New Years' Resolutions...person-on-the-street kind of stuff. Cloyingly stupid things that make all people seem shallow and, worse, all look the same.
Folks will diet and they'll join gyms and they'll promise to be nicer. But everyone wants to diet after the gorging of the holidays and it's Wintertime and it's awfully cold out and that sofa is awfully comfy—and hey, isn't the Holiday Season the Most Wonderful Time of the Year™ so didn't we just spend all of our own individual Niceness®?
Though I am not a fan of words themselves, I'm a big fan of using the right word—no matter how large or how little known—and right now, the word resolution is the one that I'm turning over and over in my head.
res•o•lu•tion |ˌrezəˈloō sh ən|
noun
1 a firm decision to do or not to do something : she kept her resolution not to see Anne any more | a New Year's resolution.
2 the action of solving a problem, dispute, or contentious matter : the peaceful resolution of all disputes | a successful resolution to the problem.
[...]
ORIGIN late Middle English: from Latin resolutio(n-), from resolvere ‘loosen, release’ (see resolve ).
The typical, tired “New Year's Resolutions” obviously fit into the first definition of the word. But what about the second definition?
We look to the New Year, to January 1st as a rebirth—we even have a Baby New Year. It's when we get to reset ourselves to the first day of the first month. A chance for a new beginning. And isn't that handy?
It's nice that we hand ourselves a fresh start. Truly. Don't get me wrong, I'm all for renewal and reinvention, remaking and restarting: I've certainly done it myself enough times.
But there's something we lose when we borrow what is essentially a social hack for a shot at too-easy rebirth. Look at the Born-Agains. Look at Jimmy Swaggart and Newt Gingrich. A contract made with a prostitute and a Contract With America made by a prostitute. No one earned the fresh start. We don't earn the fresh start a turnover on the chronometer promises.
What about that second definition above? Who takes the end of the year and makes it about resolving the problems that have happened over the past year? I'm not talking about closure. That's another word and one that lacks the vitality and the active voice needed for true resolution.
We might also think that the negative things that have happened to us are definitive and closed. Done. History. The problem with that is the chimeric nature of the Past: we suppose that it's immutable and we act as if it's immutable, even as the Past reconfigures and remaps itself to a different Reality, a different Truth almost daily.
Those two qualities of the Past form a set of race conditions where the future means less because we know that its permanence can always be changed to suit. Or if not changed, at least forgotten. It also diminishes the ongoing Present, spreading it out into the near Past and near Future until there is no longer the goad to decide because there's no longer a real here and real now.
Well, I'm going to try something different this year. As many of you know, this has not been a very good year for the Biscuit God, over all—and a few of you know exactly why it's been bad and in what ways.
History with the immutable (e.g., death) has taught me that rolling with the punches is the only way to keep on rolling sometimes. Sometimes. That's the key. Sometimes you have to punch back. Not out of bravura or machismo or in a tit-for-tat, but because it's the right thing, where I am defining “right” as that which helps to prevent a recurrence of the same bad stuff and seeks to create a space where good stuff can appear.
There have been bad guys. Some have made restitution or apology, but even that is not enough. Something else has to happen; I have to make something happen, to play the Trickster to my own life.
To that end, the right thing to do? Punishment.
Not revenge, mind you. Revenge is for children or the emotionally retarded (you know who you are). Punishment is education. Punishment is pain, or at least cost, but still it comes with a lesson. Without the lesson, it degenerates into offense or violence or, yes, revenge.
These are not threats, nor even promises. More like....predictions. “You Will Pay” is a prediction.
I intend to resolve those bad things which happened this year insofar as I am able, insofar as they are resolvable. The Known Year...the second definition...the people and the the situations. The Leader must learn he's not a leader at all, Alpha Dogs must grow spines. A Buddy isn't a buddy because a Rose actually never does go by any other name. Chances Aren't. usw...
All of it, all of them, under scrutiny in order to bring my own sunlight to my own well-earned January 1st.
And isn't that better than hitting some cosmic reset button for an annual freebie?
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You claim that you are "all for renewal and reinvention, remaking and restarting: I've certainly done it myself enough times" and then turn around and mock those, like myself, that are reborn.
I'm unsure how to react. I find it offensive of course, but my intial anger has subsided to an acceptance of your anger rather than my own.
I hope your new method helps you find peace with yourself.
Being born again was a rebirth for me. Different strokes for different folks.
Posted by: Holding My Own | December 5, 2005 07:07 AM
Mock? Hardly.
I vehemently disagree on the premise of being reborn. You're not you anymore if you are "reborn", and if you are still you, you've not been reborn, you just put a stake in the ground and divided your existing life in a Before and an After.
Posted by: GodOfBiscuits | December 5, 2005 07:12 AM
You seem to have a tainted predispostion towards those like myself that have been reborn.
Why?
What's wrong with my own renewal? My own reinvention? My own remaking? My own restarting?
Posted by: Holding My Own | December 5, 2005 07:34 AM
No one can prove or disprove the subjective experience of another. That's the mystery of consciousness itself.
Thus, I can't know what your renewal was like, but I can infer from the history and subsequent behavior of people like Jimmy Swaggart that it is used as a "get out of public-opinion jail free" card.
"Those like yourself"? How about YOU yourself? You make assertions about gay men that are bigoted and untrue. What am I to infer of the "rebirth" of one who says things like that?
Posted by: GodOfBiscuits | December 5, 2005 07:53 AM
So the basis for your entire argument on reborn christians is founded on your tainted opinion of Jimmy Swaggart?
One man? Your analysis of millions is based on one man? Please tell me you're not serious. Or that naive.
I do find it revealing of your bias that while you mock my remaking, you've commended Kevin's in an earlier thread.
Posted by: Holding My Own | December 5, 2005 08:09 AM
I'm sure you can think of any number of people who lay claim to a rebirth or renewal without having done any sort of work at it or otherwise earned it.
I'm SURE you can. Jimmy Swaggart is simply one with a high enough profile that he serves as a good illustration.
You DO know the difference between an example and a conclusion, do you not?
Posted by: GodOfBiscuits | December 5, 2005 08:13 AM
When you use that example to draw your conclusion, what's the difference?
It’s an erroneous conclusion resulting from either your predisposition or intellectual dishonesty.
Posted by: Holding My Own | December 5, 2005 08:21 AM
I did not use the example to draw a conclusion. I used it as an example of an observation.
You're starting to show your true colors. Good.
Posted by: GodOfBiscuits | December 5, 2005 08:31 AM
My true colors?
How about your own. Like your refusal to post my comment from saturday on the other thread or specify what you refute so I can reply?
Posted by: Holding My Own | December 5, 2005 08:47 AM
Prove it, "Holding".
I even offered to publish it FOR you if you email me the reply. Don't be dense. I only refuse to allow those entries which are from anonymous (no valid email) cowards and from those who make accusations of illegalities to ANYONE (myself or people who come here to make trouble).
Posted by: GodOfBiscuits | December 5, 2005 09:07 AM
On the defensive again, I see. Now it's you that's showing his true colors. Good.
Why is it you ignored my question above in regards to how you mock my remaking while you congratulate Kevin on his?
Does a restart only count for a coming out?
While you're at it, since you're so into proving things, I'd like to see you prove your own assertions that I made assertions about gay men that are bigoted and untrue.
What have I said that's untrue? What have I said that it bigoted?
Posted by: Holding My Own | December 5, 2005 09:59 AM
You can't prove a universal negative. How can I show what's not there? All I can do is let you republish whatever you said, or, you can email it to me and I will sheperd it myself right into place.
You made the assertions. You provide proof. Or leave.
I didn't use any example to draw a conclusion.
I've made any number of observations, and i *illustrated* my observations with a well-known example.
See how the observation comes BEFORE the example?
Posted by: GodOfBiscuits | December 5, 2005 11:07 AM
Somehow, once again, you've managed to avoid directly answering any of my questions. You ever consider being a politician? Or a lawyer perhaps?
Never mind, that'd require a suitable education.
"The question here is, why aren't YOU into being able to support the things you stay?"
I challange you to name one of these things, as you call them, that I haven't supported.
Name one thing.
One.
Posted by: Holding My Own | December 6, 2005 01:33 AM
Seriously, are you learning impaired?
I've answered them more than once.
You know, there's a difference between having your question answered and being supplied with the specific answer you want.
I challange you to name one of these things, as you call them, that I haven't supported.
Oh, so now you're suddenly, actually remembering the things you said?
According to you, wouldn't I have to go back and tell you what you said before I go ahead and tell you which ones I challenge?
Posted by: GodOfBiscuits | December 6, 2005 01:41 AM
This news is awesome...thanks for sharing it. Hopefully, the US will catch up to the more progressive nations.
Posted by: Bryan H | December 6, 2005 02:20 AM
You can't name one, can you?
Posted by: Holding My Own | December 6, 2005 02:40 AM
Didn't answer my question, huh?
Do you know which of your assertions were contested or not?
YES or NO.
Posted by: GodOfBiscuits | December 6, 2005 02:53 AM
You never asked that question before. Everything you ask I go to great lengths to reply, if I'm able. You could learn from that.
But to answer the question you asked just now, no. I have no idea what assertion you contest.
Posted by: Holding My Own | December 6, 2005 03:44 AM
You're pathetic.
That you made ANY assertions at all—especially ones as contentious as you did—without already having references to back up your own small opinions, is ridiculous.
So you don't know which things you said are backed by real data and which are just baseless blatherings?
Posted by: GodOfBiscuits | December 6, 2005 03:49 AM
I'm pathetic?
How pathetic is it for a person to be unable to articulate what they contest?
Tell me what you find so contentious and I'll address it.
Posted by: Holding My Own | December 6, 2005 03:54 AM
You ignored my questions again.
Why is it you ignored my question above in regards to how you mock my remaking while you congratulate Kevin on his?
Does a restart only count for a coming out?
While you're at it, since you're so into proving things, I'd like to see you prove your own assertions that I made assertions about gay men that are bigoted and untrue.
What have I said that's untrue? What have I said that it bigoted?
Posted by: Holding My Own | December 6, 2005 06:31 AM
I did NOT ignore your question. I answered it: I did not draw a conclusion FROM the example.
I also answered your question about restarting: that the subjective experience of another is in no way measurable or observable objectively and directly, that one could only infer subjectivity. And an example of one from whom I infer that a "rebirth" didn't actually happen and was only a politically-motivated reset switch was Jimmy Swaggart.
See? inferences happen, and lead to a statable observation. And in the list of those in whom I have observed this behavior, I used Jimmy Swaggart as an example of the observation.
You said: "since you're so into proving things". The question here is, why aren't YOU into being able to support the things you stay?
Posted by: GodOfBiscuits | December 6, 2005 09:26 AM
When it comes to new beginnings, especially around new year's day, I like to use another word other than "resolution", which sounds so final: so black and white.
The word I use is "intention." Therefore, I have New Year's intentions.
Posted by: shamash | December 8, 2005 06:23 AM
Holding, how pathetic is it for a person to make broad, damning, monolithic statements about a group of people and not remember they actually said so, and not have anything to back it up with?
You're intellectually LAZY, Holding.
Posted by: GodOfBiscuits | December 8, 2005 10:23 AM