Learn From It

It was two years ago today that I started this little blog o' mine. It feels like it, too. By that I mean that my internal tick-tock seems to agree with the calendar on the wall, for a change.

However, it doesn't seem like a year since the last anniversary, if that makes any sense. Having Sam here with me instead of down in Arizona. Being employed at Apple Computer as a Software Architect after so many years as a Mac user and a Mac developer. Losing some friends and gaining quite a few others. Moving closer to the kept friends, moving closer to myself. Watching Sam become what he must and what he will, in order to be himself, after being freed from the soul-deadening strictures of the military.

I know that my timesense often bears the stamp of strangeness, of non-linearity. It makes no sense and I'm usually reduced to acknowledging that I Am Who Am and little more, that Time Happens and Time Is When Is, but just today in the car on the drive home I was listening to Mary Chapin Carpenter. Love is “That Place Where Time Stands Still”, she tells me in her sweet and accessible voice.

It's no place you can get to by yourself
You've got to love someone and they love you
Time will stop for nothing else

Though so much has happened, good and bad, in the last year and in my life, I am still surprised occasionally by being forty-one years old, still surprised by the silver in the beard and the gray on the head. Still surprised that I love this City so dearly, so much, so constantly. Still surprised that I can be surprised.

My ability to be surprised is perhaps my most cherished trait. One might think it would be the ability to love, given how spectacularly fulfilled I am with Sam, but I think that being surprisable keeps you open to being lovable, to being able to love.

So here's to me, to us and to the future. To the unknown. May all our futures continue to be full of possibility.

It's the first time that you held my hand
It's the smell and the taste and the fear and the thrill
It's everything I understand
And all the things I never will

Blasts from the Past:
June 6, 2004 • Year++
June 6, 2003 • Latter-day Me